V
i.
i have started to practice drawing again. it has been too long since school, and i am rusty. i have friends - younger, sure, fresh out of school - but they are not rusty, and i am envious. i will not lose what i worked so hard for.
only the beard knows right now.
i can't really explain why, but i don't want anyone else to know.
ii.
a friendship is (weirdly) blooming between someone i have know for a very long time but always have always felt inferior around. i now realize most of that i projected into the relationship. i also realize that i have taken myself too seriously, and i needed to loosen the fuck up.
iii.
i get to see father john misty play in october. there are few bands i want to see anymore. most of them are bands i have loved for a very long time, but never seen for one reason or another (belle & sebastian, flaming lips - both i somehow, impossibly, have never seen.) recently father john misty and tune-yards made their way onto that list, probably because they are actually entertaining to watch and don't just stand and play like so many musicians do these days. i have not been a show in a very long time. mostly because i hate crowds... and pretension... and quite honestly i just feel old and lame when i go to shows.
i think too much about myself. (see: point ii. loosen the fuck up)
iv.
i just had a conversation about the difference between a fig and a beetle.
because the little one is super logical.
(sarcasm)
v.
i am going to get off of here, listen to cults, have a beer & maybe draw & paint my nails.
8:38 p.m. - 2012-08-22