easy, right?
To do list:
* Cease with the assumption that the next act is a foregone conclusion.
* Embrace the dissolution of past narratives and move forward.
* Avoid the pitfall of using age &/or rot as an excuse for anhedonia.
* Evaluate and distill desires - accept that the act of pursuing said desires is not inherently selfish.
* Unlearn the performative. Tackle passivity.
* Commence work on the thing.
* Plant new aspirations in the soil where others have been laid to rest.
* Refrain from looking up old peers and casual acquaintances on Wikipedia. This is self flagellation. (See also: certain red carpet interviews, books/book reviews, music reviews, and Instagram accounts.)
* Just make the damn specialist appointments already. The not knowing doesn’t make things better and/or easier, and could actually be making things much worse. (Remember, not all rheumatologists and neurologists practice medical misogyny.)
* Buy more dresses and books.
12:00 a.m. - 2023-08-14