2:20 a.m.
The husband came to bed late, unusually restless, and woke me. Unintentionally, of course.
I sympathized with his inability to sleep while he rubbed my back. He asked where it hurt. ‘Everywhere’.
He was in a silly mood. So when he said ’I think we should get a divorce’, I laid quietly, smiling in the dark, waiting for the inevitable punchline. And when he didn't volunteer one, I was forced to ask him ’why?’
"You didn't hurt like this before we got married."
I laughed. So stupid. "Yes, all of this is an extended allergic reaction to your presence."
"Your brain loves me, but your body hates me."
And then a more serious "Why you?"
A question with no answer. I reminded him that pain is absurd. There is no rhyme or reason to any of it.
He drifted off to sleep, while I am now left awake.
I'll go back into the front of the house. Read or draw. Wait for another edible to kick in. Maybe do some relaxation meditation.
Hopefully see more sleep this side of dawn.
2:54 a.m. - 2023-10-08